Yesterday, was a bad day.
That’s a lie, it wasn’t a bad day; I got rubbish news and it snowballed into a bad afternoon, then an unpleasant evening and finally into a bastard of a night.
Today, that crap phone-call had grown some limbs and had morphed into an unwelcome guest in my home.
You know the ones that sh*t on your carpet and set fire to the curtains?
Anyway, I have a tried and tested method of dealing with these spirals. This blueprint usually involves: overeating, drinking alcohol, saying pretty horrible things to myself and just giving into the unwelcome guest’s demands and lying in bed hearing her berate me for all my failures.
You can only hear ‘you are not enough’ so many times before you start believing it.
Are you freaking kidding? I’m STILL not enough for you? Well screw that.
Today, I tried a new method. I asked for advice from my friends, I read articles about dealing with setbacks and disappointment and I watched the ever-inspirational, Rachel Hollis’ videos about not giving up.
I did all those things and I believed the words that I was hearing and reading and seeing and because of all that I was able to show my guest the door.
Don’t get me wrong, I wallowed like a trooper but I also reminded myself that a bad day didn’t mean a bad life and I’ll take that rubbish afternoon any day, compared to what I used to have to go through.
A little wallowing can be a good thing; it means you’re feeling the emotion, you’re aware of it and you’re not trying to avoid the pain but don’t bloody drown in it.
You’ve got sh*t to do.